Megan Thee Stallion’s boyfriend Pardison Fontaine is said to be “embarrassed” that she had intimate relations with pint-sized rapper Tory Lanez.

Megan revealed as much when she testified against Lanez during his shooting trial on Dec. 13, telling the courtroom that she initially lied about having a sexual relationship with him. It seems Pardi may have found out the truth as the trial got underway.

“I feel disgusted, I feel dirty, my own partner is embarrassed,” Megan testified, according to PEOPLE via

This situation has only been worse for me and it has only made him more famous,” Megan said in court as reported by The Shade Room. “I wish he would have just shot and killed me if I knew I would have to go through this torture.

She added: “I’m embarrassed because I’m a grown woman hanging with people I have no business hanging out with. Now, look at how everybody wants to view me…. How could I share my body with someone who would shoot me… Now every week, there’s an article calling me a h*e.”