Meghan Markle Considered Suicide During Time as a British Royal. The Duchess of Sussex revealed her experience in a sit down interview with Oprah Winfrey, which aired on Sunday. I just didn’t want to be alive any more. And that was a very clear and real and frightening constant thought, Meghan Markle, via CBS. Ms. Markle revealed that her suicidal thoughts in part stemmed from concerns “about how dark [Archie’s] skin might be when he’s born.”. The Duchess also shared that she was denied help after seeking support from the human-resources department of the palace. The candid interview is the first since Prince Harry and Meghan stepped down as senior members of the royal family last year